I miss Chaucer so very much.
It’s going to be a long, long day.
Tag: lonely
Because this girl means so much to me
And now we on the floor and she touchin’ me
So yeah, I’m a little bit of an idiot. Just watching the wedding episode of Brooklyn Nine-Nine, and I’ll be honest, I teared up a little.
I think I’m tired. I only get really emotional when I’m tired. But it was a really good episode.
Ok, shower time.
I 🫀 you.
Something Different – Downton Abbey
Hey book nerds! I’ll be honest, right off the bat. I haven’t read a page this week, and instead of fluffing up a Book Club post, I figured I’d just tell you about the show I’ve been watching instead.
I am truly loving Plain Bad Heroines. I really am, but I’ve gotten in the groove of after supper, just watching an episode of Downton Abbey. It relaxes me to be thrust into 1920s high society. And it’s just enough time for an episode (not the season premieres or the finales, but the 2 or 3 regular episodes) to get a spoon or two back for the day, then I call the Beautiful One. The cares of the day fade away.
I love this show. I don’t know why. I’m very happy that I was able to finally find it digitally. I can’t even remember how I found the CBC Gem app, but I’m so happy I did. It is laughable that if I watch an episode on my phone, I get commercials. If I cast it, I don’t. Well that’s not true, one episode I got a total of 4 commercials, and the episode I watched last night, I got a random Downy commercial.
I just started season 3. (Again, I’ve seen the whole series twice now, this is my third viewing of it.) It’s something I look forward to each night. it’s a nice day to just wind down. And I can just lay there. Next week, I’m thinking that I’ll watch an episode one night, read the next. That way I get the best of both. I have missed reading this last week, but I’ll get back into it!
So yeah, that’s how I spent the last week. No complaints. Gosh, it’s nice to talk about my likes. I tried at work when they asked what I did the night before, and they looked at me like I had 3 heads when I said I watched Downton. So I’ve learned just just say I read it watched TV.
It’s easier that way!
Until next time, book nerds!
Baby, the best part of me is you
Shady Acres is asleep for right now. I’m sure when my dad wakes up, we’ll be doing his honey do list. There’s only a few more things to do on it, so that’s a good thing.
It’s grey, windy and cold. It’s supposed to get wicked cold tonight. I’ll be closing my window almost all the way tonight, I put an extra blanket on last night. I’m not used to this cold. I’m sitting here, with numb toes, cold hands, and a frozen nose. If I was a smart man, I should’ve bought fall/winter clothes when I first got down here, but I didn’t. So I’m starting to pay for it. As a last resort, I have a sweater that I can put on if needed.
What am I going to do when it gets even colder? We’ll find out!
And I really miss Crystal. On days like this we’d be curled up on the couch watching movies and drinking tea. It’s harder on the grey days. We both feel terribly alone. I try really hard not to think about stuff like this, because then I’d have to explain to my mom why I’m crying on her couch. I put on my smile and say I’m ok. I just keep looking out the window like I’m expecting Crystal to pull up and honk the horn. Each night I fall asleep with the dream of pulling up to her campground spot and her running toward me. I miss her so so much 😢
And I know she misses me just as much. I just love her more than anything in the whole world.
The way you walk – it drives me mad
I don’t know what’s worse, being alone with people around you, or having no one around you. I think they’re both equally as bad. With people around, you have to expend energy on conversation. You really do have to make some sort of effort to make it look like you’re doing ok and aren’t screaming on the inside.
Smile.
Say good morning.
Yes, I had an amazing sleep last night.
No, I didn’t hear the massive thunder storms, nor did I see the lightning. But gosh darn it I wish I did.
I’m not a talker. Let me just be alone. I’m tired of putting on a smile and faking it.
I realize I’m lucky that they even wanted me here. I don’t know what I would’ve done if they didn’t. I’m very lucky. However, it’s exhausting to fake being happy all day. Sometimes, i just have an off day.
I miss my wife. I’m well aware that this is all my fault. This is all my doing, and I’ll never completely make it up to her, but I’m going to try. I don’t even know how to put it into words. I miss her so much, all the time. So much so, if I stop and think, even just for a minute, it hurts so bad.
But then I feel guilty, because I have it so easy. She has all the stress of everything. I’d rather it be the other way around.
It’s show time, put that smile on.
Also, about 2 hours before Shady Acres has their afternoon nap.
Happy Monday.