The way you walk – it drives me mad Shawshank, August 24, 2020August 24, 2020 I don’t know what’s worse, being alone with people around you, or having no one around you. I think they’re both equally as bad. With people around, you have to expend energy on conversation. You really do have to make some sort of effort to make it look like you’re doing ok and aren’t screaming on the inside. Smile. Say good morning. Yes, I had an amazing sleep last night. No, I didn’t hear the massive thunder storms, nor did I see the lightning. But gosh darn it I wish I did. I’m not a talker. Let me just be alone. I’m tired of putting on a smile and faking it. I realize I’m lucky that they even wanted me here. I don’t know what I would’ve done if they didn’t. I’m very lucky. However, it’s exhausting to fake being happy all day. Sometimes, i just have an off day. I miss my wife. I’m well aware that this is all my fault. This is all my doing, and I’ll never completely make it up to her, but I’m going to try. I don’t even know how to put it into words. I miss her so much, all the time. So much so, if I stop and think, even just for a minute, it hurts so bad. But then I feel guilty, because I have it so easy. She has all the stress of everything. I’d rather it be the other way around. It’s show time, put that smile on. Also, about 2 hours before Shady Acres has their afternoon nap. Happy Monday. Life aloneblogfake it til you make itguiltylonely
Life What “friends” alum starred in films with Bruce Willis? (we answered so fast it was scary) Everyone stared in awe when we screamed Matthew Perry! June 30, 2025 Good morning. Yep, this post is a little late. The kittens let US sleep in. Yes, even Crystal! I know, it’s cray cray. I don’t think Crystal has slept in until 8:30 in a long time. so I got up and fed the kittens. Podrick has eaten most of his… Read More
Life Funny how my memory skips while looking over manuscripts January 13, 2022 Good morning y’all. We’re almost finished with another week. The days have been moving slowly, but when you look up, they’re just flying by. I don’t like it. But we have coffee sitting next to us, it’s dark, but still slightly warmish outside. I could learn to enjoy these temperatures…. Read More
Life Well the years start coming and they don’t stop coming March 26, 2021 Good morning, me hearties! It’s Friyay! We freakin made it! It’s a grey day here in TinyTown. This morning my dad left for work early today so I got dressed and grabbed my lunch, leaving a note for my mom, and headed over to The Flat. Coffee is brewing, and… Read More
It’s been a long week already, and I still feel like everything is against me. Like this:Like Loading… Good morning, my darlings. Here’s your reminder of what day it is: Yes. It’s only Tuesday. Yesterday sucked, as expected. Sunday’s foul mood spilled into Monday, and it took a long time to feel like it lifted even a little. Unfortunately, my bad mood also brought Shawshank down. I feel a bit bad for that. It’s such a “damned if you do, damned if you don’t” deal. Either I’m in a bad mood, admit it, and I’m honest about why, or I keep it in and insist I’m fine when it’s obvious I’m not. Both options wind up with those close to me all worried. Work sucked as well. We tried to finish as much of Sunday’s work as we could on Saturday, there’s only so much we can do. We never stopped moving, and my shift was nearly finished by the time I finally went to lunch. StressedRPh is floating the idea of only scheduling NewTech every other weekend, and that’s fine with me. I’ll take an extra five hour shift in my paycheck. Last night, I took some time to look at the budget again. If my hours stay the way they are, I should be ok until November. According to the budget, things should be ok until December. However, I’m being cautious. I don’t want to be here at that point anyway. Unfortunately, the fancypants poi probably aren’t the best idea right now unless eBay and Facebook Marketplace business picks up. However, there’s a chance today will be a decent shift. It’s a split shift, and I’ll be closing up shop with Matryoshka. It’s supposed to be another day of nasty humidity with a good chance of some thunderstorms this afternoon. The forecast says the storms will happen right smack dab through the majority of my shift. Right now, I have the added bonus of a morning workout to start the day. I did calf raises during Sunday’s workout, and my body hasn’t yet forgiven me for it. Related posts:Bring it Outside365Oh Deer 🦌Like this:Like Loading… Reply