Put on my blue suede shoes

Good morning! Who has two thumbs and is currently really really anixious. That’s right, me. Yay. I woke up about a half hour before the alarm, panicking. You see, NewNewGirls last shift was Saturday. There’s no buffer anymore. It’s just BossLady and me again. You see, she made the decision to close the store, mid September I think. And we’re one week into the closing sale.

I really don’t want to work today. But I have to, and now I have to convince my body and my mind to fucking relax. It’s not really working today. I’m trying deep breathing, but when you wake up in the middle of the night freaking out about going to work in the morning it’s not going to be a good day.

I’m gonna try to make it a good day, but it’s up in the air whether or not it’ll be a good day. I’m very hopeful.

I can always feel my mood changing around Sunday mid morning. The edge comes back. The humour is a little more forced. The mind is starting to race. Monday during the day isn’t too bad, but once it gets dark, my mind knows that Tuesday is coming freaking fast, and there’s nothing that I can do about it.

I need more coffee. It’s gonna be a long long day. And I’m not looking forward to it. Yay Tuesday.