Just wait until I’m on the plane, how manic the letters will be with me having panic attacks at 30,000 feet. That should be a lot of fun! But seriously, I’d like to write to you even when we’re back together even if it’s just a page. It is cleansing. And I can put them around the house so you can find them, or I could mail them to you 🙂

So far, the books that have been my favorites have been 1. Bike across USA 2. Walk across USA and now 3. hike the Pacific Coast Trail. There’s so many kind people out there. I’m about halfway through “Wild” by Cheryl Strayed. I’m going to read a little more then head off to bed. So I’ll say goodnight now. Have an excellent sleep, I love you lots. I’ll be dreaming of you tonight. I love you so much. Kisses you all over. I miss you.

[3/26/20]
Good morning! Staying up just 20 minutes longer helped a lot. I think I had a good sleep. Still a little light in the morning, but way better than the night before. Totes better. So today I should be getting my hair did. Supposed to be getting started at 9. We’ll see. Remember prison time is totally different from real world time. Just like breakfast is supposed to be at 7:35, and it’s almost 8, and the common room lights are still off.

I have no idea what’s for breakfast today. This hotel has the worst continental breakfasts. My repeated requests to talk to the manager have fallen on deaf ears.

Breakfast is done. Coffee has been consumed. The sweetened farina wasn’t sweetened. My waiter ignored my complaints and I had to bus my own table. This resort is going to get a terrible review on Yelp and Google. But I am ready to start another day. Let’s see where it takes me. I loves ya!

Ok, I’m done with CNN for today. When the totals for the US go up twice in two commercial breaks, that’s enough for me! Plus I gotta pee. Someone n here was just howling. Like, I think, crying howling, not wolf howling. But my room has been swept and everything put back under the bed. There’s rumours that the Barber Shoppe is cancelled but I’ll believe it when I don’t have a haircut today. Ask and ye shall receive! I put in the kiosk that my skin is so dry, and I got some lotion. My forehead is the worst though. And the barber shoppe has been cancelled. Not surprised. Meh, I’m ok with it. And the CNN totals went up again. Not good.

I finished “Wild”. As with finishing books like these I now have a lump in my throat. If I cry today, and I might, I hope it’s happy tears. And not my weekly depression tears that seem to happen more and more these days and weeks. I love you so much. Time for another sheet of paper 🙂

The sun feels nice on my face today. I wish I could see out my window. I wish I could see you. I hope I can see you before I go. I also hope I get my revised paperwork before my court date in 11 days. But even if I don’t, I’m going to say I got it. I don’t want to wait for yet another court date, but I’m sure I will. I’m trying to keep my expectations low, so I’m not disappointed when I’m not wrong.

Hot dogs for lunch today. And beans. I feel more tired than I am. Sadder than I am. I guess today I just am. Neither happy or sad. I think I’m starting to go stir crazy. Just a little though. I guess a little crazy is ok, right? The hot dogs were good. I really like the taste of yellow mustard. The beans were pretty much tasteless.

That motherfucker is still whistling…

I’m really struggling to think of things to write to you. The night I got my shoes, I cleaned them. I have extra toothpaste as well as extra toothbrushes. I cleaned all the white rubber on them. They look pretty good. I felt a little manic as I did that at 10pm.

How’s the truck running? Don’t forget every 3-4k get the oil changed. Full synthetic. I know you know this. Just feeling a little powerless today. 🙂

Almost to the end of another letter. I always feel very accomplished to have written this much. When I start writing I never think I’ll have enough to write about. I re-read before mailing and I can think about is who would want to read this?! But alas, earwax, I keep writing for you my love. Always and only for you. Sadly today is Thursday. That means no phone call tonight. That’s ok because it’s Thursday and it’s after lunch, it’s Friday eve. And on Friday, you get a phone call!

Well, the envelope has been written and stamped, just waiting for me to finish this page. Can I do it? I hope so! Unlike page 6 and 7 I’m feeling better. Somedays it’s like a yo-yo, somedays more even.

I love you so much my angel

Talk and write to you soon!

Love,
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snuggles