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3/12/20
Well hello you sexy girl!
Someone is whistling in here. The same tune for 2 or 3 days now. I’m going insane. And it’s really only when we’re locked up. Something, something, cruel and unusual. I think I really am going stir crazy. I’m trying to hold out for my court date, but my head is telling me “what’s a few days?” My heart is saying “stay in for her, she needs time.” My body is saying “I just want a solid night’s sleep.” I tossed and turned all night. Totally random scary dreams. It’s been like that for a few days now. I’m very tired. I’m sure you are too. Maybe I’ll have a better sleep tonight. I really want to call you tonight, but I won’t. I’ve slipped the last couple of days, and I need to get back on the M-W-F-S track. Once I’m in Canada, I might be not be able to call every night (I hope that’s not the case) but I might be able to swing M-W-F-S. But for sure texting etc.
This is what I have next to my bed: [insert 19 hash marks]
I update it every morning before I make my bed. I don’t know if I can double the hash marks, it seems so far away to me. 4.5 weeks at the earliest. Can I survive it? How far will I retreat into myself? I think that’s what I’m scared of in here.
O. M. G. HE’S STILL WHISTLING…
This corona virus is crazy. I heard on NPR, that every major sport has cancelled the season, and baseball is waiting another two weeks. Before they start they’re watching basketball, but it’s a rerun. The only news that’s ever on is Telemundo, and I’m getting pretty ok with basic translation. LOL. It would be nice to be able to listen to the news. I try to, but I don’t want to waste the batteries on my radio! They give you the first set, but then it’s up to you to buy replacements.
3/13/20
So a little before 6am today, they came and took Owen, It’s 6:40ish now and I can’t sleep. Beds made, pooped, and it’s very quiet here. I shouldn’t be, but I’m already very lonely. Also I think someone is sick. I could’ve swore that I heard someone throwing up. I’m not sure though. So yeah, I think it’s gonna be a not so good day. But it’s your day off, and I hope it’s gonna be awesome for you. I’m gonna try and nap sometime today because it was all nightmares all night. Not in a good place this morning at all. Also, happy Friday the 13th… now I just have to wait for breakfast. And I promise, I’ll try and get in a good mood before I call this afternoon.
It’s commasary day. While, again, I’m not getting stamps, I am getting deodorant. Hopefully it’s better than the stuff they give us. And getting more envelopes. LOL just need stamps! Oh! And I think we got new books. I’ll find out after breakfast. I have a few to return anyways. Have I told you lately that I love you? Well I totes do. <3 totes a lot. Ima try to get the stamps, and maybe a deck of cards to help entertain me, because I don’t think there’s a solitaire for Uno. We’ll see.
Wow, would you look at this: another letter almost finished! I’m really surprised at myself. I didn’t think I had enough words for 1 letter, let alone 8 (and counting!) I do apologise if I repeat myself a lot. It’s just what pops into my mind at that exact moment. It does help to pass it time, and I feel connected to you, even for just a second or two.
I love you so fucking much <3
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