Dinner wasn’t too bad: Asian fried rice. I don’t know what made it Asian. In it was undercooked rice, every vegetable we’ve had this week plus peas, and the leftover sausage hot dogs we had from lunch. And it was pretty col. But I got powdered orange juice, so I got that going for me, which is nice.

I think I’m gonna read for a bit. For some reason we just got locked in 20 minutes early. Don’t know why, honestly I don’t really care. I’m in my room 95% of the time, so I’m pretty ok with it. The scary thing is, right now, it’s completely silent out there. Wish it was like that at 10. LOL I have a feeling I’ll be out shortly after last count. Well, fingers crossed.

After reading some “serious” books, I decided my next one shouldn’t take it too seriously. I found a True Blood one, it’s like number 5 or 6. It’s basically 100% cheese and I needed some cheese today. It’s been entertaining. It’s been a long day, and I’m not going to call. That’s tomorrow, and I’m excited to maybe call you a couple of times 🙂 So I hope I have a really good sleep, so I’m in an ok mood, and not blubbering like an idiot. Because that would not be good.

The children are starting to get rowdy. They’ve been locked up longer than normal. Another 10/15 minutes and they’ll be pounding on their doors and yelling like little kids. Some of these “little kids” are gang members …

So another grievance/msg will be sent soon. I was supposed to get my sleepytime meds tonight, but the medline nurse had no record. Lucky thing I’m wicked tired, I don’t think I need them tonight. Also, the guy that freaked out last night just came back with a mask on and walking like he’s totally out of it and drugged. He just went to his cell, which they totally cleaned out (none of his food, personal effects, nothing), locked himself in, and I assume just went to sleep.

Grievance sent. Instead of getting annoyed/angry, I just said to myself “meh”, and went and took a shower. Where immediately it went cold. Yep, but after maybe 5-10 seconds of cold water, it went hot again. Thankfully. We’re about 20 min away from last lock-in and our final count for the night.

There’s a scuttle-butt around what happened. No one’s really talking around me, but if I’m quiet, and the din isn’t too loud, I can pick up some things. People are saying that he may have smoked something laced with something really bad. I don’t really know though, it’s just what I heard. This is the drama that I’ll stay as far away as possible. I just want to do my time here and get the fuck out of here. So I keep my head down, read my books, and write to you. Kisses 🙂

[3/22 – ed.]

Good morning, sweetness 🙂 The children were rowdy last night. So I don’t know when I actually fell asleep. I’m thinking it was about 11:30-12. Then I was out. I think I rolled once, got comfy, and that was that. But it’s Sunday, and I get to call you, maybe even twice! I’m gonna try and nap after breakfast, so this afternoon I’ll be ready.

Can’t sleep. But that’s ok. I shouldn’t sleep the day away. That would be a bad habit to get into for sure. I have a new pen on the list of stuff to get next. I can almost literally watch the ink go down as I write! I hope that you had a good sleep with the kitties. It looks like it’ll be a nice day out there.

The TV’s just came on. On 1 – Tom Brady marathon – 7 hours of the best games and Superbowl highlights. Spanish airbrush makeup, and finally MTV, which in the morning still plays videos. It’s a quiet day here so far. Most people clean a little then nap. I’d probably say 1/3 are sleeping right now. Some are working out as well. Me? I’m missing you. I’m in an ok mood today. The days move quickly, but the weeks seem to move slow. I’m sure that’s how it feels for you as well.

So I have a page left in this letter. Might be a little bit of a backlog until I can get the stamps on Wednesday. I’m trying to take my time writing. Sometimes, like last night the words just come out of me. It’s like they needed to be written down. Almost cathartic I guess.

And I think you’d be proud of me. Every twoish days I ask for a razor and touch up my face. I think a lot of it is due to boredom, and next barber day I’ll cut my hair and trim my beard again. I always meant to do it every two weeks at home, but I was selfish. I wanted to be next to you as much as possible. I’m not blaming you at all. Never! It’s freezing in here today. It’s almost time for lunch, and that also means it’s almost time to call you! Guess what!? I called and you sounded amazing! I think I might nap for a little bit. I love you.

Well that nap was kinda nice. Probably about 40-45 minutes. Probably more of a lite sleep, considering the noise level in here. Hopefully the children go to sleep early tonight. Just had to run to the kiosk, to add to my medication list: earplugs. Who knows if they even have any, but might as well ask.

Here’s the part of the letter where I say goodbye

I love you so very much,
REDACTED

*kisses*