I took the afternoon off from work. She said I didn’t have to, but no one should be sick by themselves. I ate two bites of my ramen, and walked back to work to tell BossLady that I’d see her next week.

Stopped at the store, grabbed some crackers, and a ginger ale for Crystal.

She took another rapid COVID test – negative.

She’s sleeping beside me as I wash her clothes.

I texted mom saying that we’d probably not come by for dinner tonight.

I don’t want want her to be sick.

I don’t want her to leave.

I’m so very very close to tears.

I wish I could say “please don’t go. I don’t know if I can live alone again. These 5 weeks have been the first 5 weeks of not feeling alone.”

I don’t want to be by myself again.

I’m scared of the silence to come.

I hope you get feeling better.

I love you so much.